One year ago…

Dear Papi,

A year ago today I came home from the Army.  So much has happened this year, some of which really opened my eyes to the fact that life doesn’t always go according to plan.  There are days I miss the Army more than words can describe.  I loved being a soldier but a year ago God decided my family needed me home more than they needed me keeping them safe as a soldier.  I learned from you that you do whatever it takes to take care of your family.  I offered to lay my life down for  my family and my country but God decided that wasn’t what my path.

A year ago today God brought my home safely.  As much as I miss the military and as tough as things have been since I have been home…atleast God brought me home.  There are days I look at my father and the curveballs God has thrown him and want to  breakdown and cry but then I realize…atleast I’m here to be with him in his time of need.  There are days Kelsey Rose needs to help me tie my shoes because my back is so bad, but atleast I am home with her again to see her beautiful smile.

I may not be a soldier anymore but no one will ever be able to take from me what I did in the military and who I have become.  One day at a time, I am developing a man in the mirror I can be proud of.  

Thank you for watching over me and keeping me safe.  I hope I am making you proud.  Things may not always go according to my plan but that’s ok because God hasn’t steered me wrong yet and I know you are watching over me.  

Miss you like crazy.  Don’t worry, I’m taking care of Nani like I promised.  
– Timmy 

“Well if she is special…don’t mess it up!”

Dear Papi,

Six years ago today I met the love of my life.  There are not words to describe the way I love Kelsey Rose, but if those words existed I can assure you I would have learned them from you.  The way you loved people was unlike anything I have ever seen, especially the way you loved Nani.  You treated her like a queen and you made me promise you that when I met the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with I would treat her the same way.  Six years later and I love her more and more everyday.

I have made so many mistakes.  Countless times I nearly pushed her away but here we stand.  Three and a half years while I was in the Army she stuck by my side, two of which we had an ocean between us.  We wouldn’t be celebrating this anniversary without you because you taught me how to love.  The way you treated Nani left a legacy.  You and I spoke on the phone every single day for years but it all started when I called you to tell you I met Kelsey Rose.  Your words were so simple that day….”Well, if she is special…don’t mess it up.”

I am so happy to be celebrating with her today.  I have missed the last three anniversaries because I was away but you brought me back home safely to be with her again.

This one is for you Papi…Thank you,

Tim

The laughs never end…

Dear Papi,

Yesterday I was thinking about prior to when I left for basic those few months I spent driving you to your appointments, and the fun we had.  Whether it was you making race care noises as you drove your electric wheelchair down the hallway, or simply the way you lit up every room you entered.  I was driving by myself yesterday laughing hysterically just reflecting on some incredible moments we shared.  Those may have been some of the best months of my life. Continue reading “The laughs never end…”

Dear Papi,

Dear Papi,

I just wanted you to know I made the Deans list today for my first semester back at college.  Years ago, I was coming up with excuses for why I was failing my classes and I remember you telling me “well tomorrow is another day.”  Sometimes the best advice you gave me were the most simple of words.  It took me a long time to realize that its never to late to change the direction of my life, and that you truly can’t go through life alone.  It’s hard to take accountability for our mistakes, but when we do…doors open that we never knew existed.  As proud as I was of my grades last semester, I couldn’t have done it alone.  It is so easy in life to pat ourselves on the back when we succeed, but we forget those who helped us get there.  Success really isn’t anything special without people to share it with.  I miss you Papi, and I promise I am taking good care of Nani.  We miss you, and I hope you had a good birthday.papi-and-his-queen

You are gone, but never forgotten.

Dear Chris and Stan,

I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for the two of you.  There are days I sit here and wonder what my life would be like if you were still here with me today.  I created this page on my website where I will write letters to you both knowing God will share them with you and the rest of the world.  You both have changed my life and I could never thank you enough for that.  I miss you beyond words.  Chris I sent your mom a nice message on her birthday, and I will get her a copy of the book soon.  You both have given me strength beyond measure.

My family is going through a tough time with some medical issues.  There are days when I am afraid, but I think back to days with both of you and I feel strong.  God throws some serious curveballs at us in life.  Stan you told me that the days I am afraid to pray, and look to those around me for strength and I do buddy.  You showed me that I could lean on you in my time of need, you told me that the day would come when others would need to lean on me and that day is here.  I will be strong, I will have faith, and I will fulfill your legacies.  I miss you guys, hope its warmer up there than it is down here!