Two years. Yesterday was two years since God called you home, brother. It doesn’t get any easier with time. I miss you like crazy bud. You may be gone, but nobody will ever take your legacy. You changed the way I see the world. You changed the way I live my life. You changed the way I walk, the way I talk and the the way I look in the mirror. I make a lot of mistakes, but I will never forget you telling me “you can’t beat someone who doesn’t quit.” I will never quit and I will never stop trying until the day God calls me home by your side. Continue reading “You can’t beat someone who doesn’t quit…”
I had a great weekend with Kelsey and her family celebrating the 4th of July. I couldn’t be happier that I got a chance to be with her incredible family. Kelsey was so supportive when I asked her to come with me to visit your mother and your grave. I miss you like crazy buddy and so does your mother. She is so proud of the man you became and I her and I could have sat at that table for days just talking about memories with you. There isn’t enough time in the world to even begin to capture the impact you have made in this world but I can see it in your mothers eyes that you changed her life the same way you changed mine. We sat there and just talked and laughed and had a blast. You touched the souls of everyone you met, you made the world a better place, and you left some incredible shoes to fill…but I can assure you Chris that I will keep my promise to you. Continue reading “Dear Chris,”
A year ago today I came home from the Army. So much has happened this year, some of which really opened my eyes to the fact that life doesn’t always go according to plan. There are days I miss the Army more than words can describe. I loved being a soldier but a year ago God decided my family needed me home more than they needed me keeping them safe as a soldier. I learned from you that you do whatever it takes to take care of your family. I offered to lay my life down for my family and my country but God decided that wasn’t what my path.
A year ago today God brought my home safely. As much as I miss the military and as tough as things have been since I have been home…atleast God brought me home. There are days I look at my father and the curveballs God has thrown him and want to breakdown and cry but then I realize…atleast I’m here to be with him in his time of need. There are days Kelsey Rose needs to help me tie my shoes because my back is so bad, but atleast I am home with her again to see her beautiful smile.
I may not be a soldier anymore but no one will ever be able to take from me what I did in the military and who I have become. One day at a time, I am developing a man in the mirror I can be proud of.
Thank you for watching over me and keeping me safe. I hope I am making you proud. Things may not always go according to my plan but that’s ok because God hasn’t steered me wrong yet and I know you are watching over me.
Miss you like crazy. Don’t worry, I’m taking care of Nani like I promised.
Six years ago today I met the love of my life. There are not words to describe the way I love Kelsey Rose, but if those words existed I can assure you I would have learned them from you. The way you loved people was unlike anything I have ever seen, especially the way you loved Nani. You treated her like a queen and you made me promise you that when I met the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with I would treat her the same way. Six years later and I love her more and more everyday.
I have made so many mistakes. Countless times I nearly pushed her away but here we stand. Three and a half years while I was in the Army she stuck by my side, two of which we had an ocean between us. We wouldn’t be celebrating this anniversary without you because you taught me how to love. The way you treated Nani left a legacy. You and I spoke on the phone every single day for years but it all started when I called you to tell you I met Kelsey Rose. Your words were so simple that day….”Well, if she is special…don’t mess it up.”
I am so happy to be celebrating with her today. I have missed the last three anniversaries because I was away but you brought me back home safely to be with her again.
This one is for you Papi…Thank you,
I couldn’t get myself to write you this letter yesterday. It is crazy to think it has been three years since God called you home. I miss you like crazy bud. The world is struggling without people like you here to help straighten it out. As I sat down last night when I got home from work I thought about the ways in which you helped me realize what this world has to offer and what I have to offer this world. You changed the way I live my life. I will never be the same and I have you to thank for that. Continue reading “Yesterday was tough…”
As you know buddy four years ago today you and I dawned our berets for the first time as we graduated Basic Training. It blows my mind to think that it has been four years since the day my father bought you those boots. It blows my mind even more thinking that this summer will be two years that you have been gone. You have changed the way I see the world brother and I will never be the same for that. I made you a promise four years ago that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. You are the reason I work in the area that I work in. You are the reason I am the man I am. We promised each other that we would change the world and you held up your end, now it is my turn brother. Keep your hand on my shoulder and guide me. You are gone but never forgotten. Love you buddy. SPARTANS!
Dear Chris and Stan,
Last week God called home another one of our brothers. Stan, Tomlin from 3rd Batt. He was a Crew Chief from B Co. and I flew with him a few times and he lived right across the hall from me in Germany. Jeremy Tomlin was killed in a Black Hawk crash this week and its hard to believe he is gone. He payed the ultimate sacrifice and has joined you both by God’s side.
I pray for his family that they my find peace knowing he was an incredible soldier and he will be in great company alongside his brothers and sisters that have gone before him. I am proud to know men like him and I know you both will welcome him with open arms. I never thought I would have lost three of my brothers so early in my life, and it definitely doesn’t get an easier. You three have changed the way I see the world. I miss you, Rest Easy. You are gone but never forgotten.
Tomlin, Rest easy brother. We will take it from here.
I miss you buddy. The last couple of days have been pretty hectic for my family and I and once again when things get tough, God fills my mind with memories. As tough as yesterday was, my father kept saying “We are so blessed” which I have heard him say my entire life…but lately it holds much more weight… Continue reading “The memories just keep rollin…”